151. Actual

"What we do only has meaning in the here and now. It will not
remain in the next instant. Just do what you can for the present,
and leave everything else to happen naturally. Work. Wash.
Meditate. Eat. Study. Urinate. Sleep. Exercise. Talk. Listen.
Touch. Die each night. Be born again each morning."

-Deng Ming-Dao, 365 Tao: Daily Meditations

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Aqua Dreams

There are times when it becomes necessary to force a split from "reality" in order to survive. During those times, another "reality" is often discovered, perhaps more viable — and "real" — than the first.

During nights punctuated with sparks of lucidity, aqua dreams can emerge.

"For those who believe, no explanation is necessary.
For those who don't, no explanation will suffice."

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Chill of Night

dance
dance
by the ocean i dance
shifting sand
under my feet
until night falls
blackness rolls in
like fog
billowing blackness
obscuring my eyes
glints of fire
fading in my eyes
glints of fire
the twilight fades
my veil has dropped
my skirt has fallen
darkness has come
i am all that remains
will i survive
the chill
of night?

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Phone Calls

Phone rings at work.
Sometimes I answer, sometimes another person grabs it.
If someone else answers, the caller asks for me, specifically.
Obscene.
Derogatory.
Taunting.
What a way for "grown up" people to act.
Dangerous? Or just a twisted prank?
I have no idea.
Yet.
We'll see.
Dammit, I don't need this shit.

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The River

thousands of trickles
flow together
to form
streams
and rivers
thousands of trickles
flowing together
but still different
so, what is a river?
thousands of variables
thousands of thoughts
thousands of feelings...
don't get
washed away

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Totem Pole

It sux, being low-woman on the totem pole and not being able to spend time with friends this weekend. Sometimes it is amazing how Life gets in the way of Life.

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String

The past few days have left me feeling unattractive and undesirable -- physically, sexually, emotionally, and intellectually. I think I'm still breathing. Perhaps I've closed my eyes too tightly and become invisible. No matter how much I do, there is always more to be done.

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